i was ten

i was ten when i first wanted to die,
i was ten when i first wished to feel the water in my lungs,
i was ten when i was misunderstood by my contemporaries
i was ten when i felt the abyss between me and my mom
i was ten when i first find out the world "depression"
i was ten when i find out i was otherworldly
i was ten when i first felt the fire,
the fire that burns my mind
- the youthful self-destroying